hi 2019..
currently i am doing my master. hope to be finish on 2020.
basically , i am surviving in my life. there are many things happened in 2017 and 2018.
2017
one of it is : break ups.
after breakup, as i mentioned before, its hurts real deep because one, im losing him, 2.
i am also hurting him. a lot. i realized i giving up for someone who truly loves me. stupid i am.
but its all done. after a while, not a while lah, after some time. being single.
2 people approach me out of nowhere. and seriously wanted to marry me. i have no clue,
im not ready, my heart cant accept ,,struggling to forget 'the one i called, ex'.
tried to open my heart for others. but still. its hard for me to forget the ex.
turning to allah again. i rejected and friendzone the 2 people.
and turned back to allah.asking for help, for the right path chosen.
2018
pursue my studies. hoping to be nearer to him. but things turns different. he chose to be in other places because of works. i accept, always support him.
end of 2018,
now i have courage to propose him back. this is one big decision making business here. its matter of life and death, haha no lah . with the help of allah, without hesitation, no matter of what kind of decision that i received from him later, i will redha and continue my life.
guessing what will be the results? is it yes or no?
to be continue.......