Sunday, November 12, 2017

i miss him

i miss him so much,
that i keep thinking of him,
....
i hate myself.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

people come and go

So, I bet I will be starting writing something here from now.
i know blogging is something that people no longer use anymore. but
i am still using it. which its better like this.
no one will read except for somebody who is willing to click on, or find me on my blog.
gotchhaaaa. haha

yes, people come and go.
and ofcourse one day, people that you love also will leaves you. so we as a servant of Allah swt should prepare ourselves mentally and physically for presents and future.

move on.
its easy to say than do.
it will take courage, strength to do such thing.
as time pass, sometimes me myself monologue "is this the best for me? "
but then again. i hope this is the best decision which may guide us to the better way. inshaallah.

feels.
this is the 3rd time i got into this kind of situation where letting go is the decision.
pain, hurt, the feeling its like someone has punched your heart. like 1 big punch of fist. real hurts
struggling for the 1st semester of "relationship no more".
it made me think about "do i need another realtionship or just wait and see or etc?"

honestly,
him, is the best things happened in my life. almost 5 years ups n downs. and we met only 3 to 5 times a year. can you imagine that?
i love how we changed to teenage minded until adults mind.
from nothing to something.

but ended, somehow Allah has better plan for both of us, amin inshallah

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

2017

hi 2017.
its been a long time since i'm not posting anything in my blog,
going through all these years,
with an  ups and downs
with some of my friends have been married with children,
some of them pursuing masters and phd,
some of them doing business etc

how am i doing right now?
my answer will be , i'm surviving. :)

currently,
i'm a lecturer at one of the college here.
will pursue my study someday, inshaallah,
pray for me ya

regarding on this blog,
maybe i will be deleted some of my emotional post or whatsoever, ahahha
segan la, post dulu tu tak immatured langsung tauu. hahhaha

alright then,
assalamualaikum